Hello Journal, My Old Friend

I've abused the journal feature here throughout the years. Sharing the art and sharing interpersonal feelings through the same forum can create a conflict. Many people view the deviantART experience as a sterile environment to hang the art on the wall and keep private thoughts separate. What I see as the trouble with social networks is people filter it. Only the good comes to light (and with some persons, only the negative is shared). This is an illusion as we "advertise" our lives. Obviously, I want people to view my art. But my life has been a wreak for the past few years and so words and feelings expressed here, while honest, surely have worked in a manner that was counterproductive to sharing my art.

"He draws pretty mermaids, but he sure is angry."

My life has changed drastically this past week. I now have hope. And while I've shared so much failure, gloom, and disappointment here, it it is thrilling to be able to share the positive. And those "watchers" those friends who have stuck with me throughout the years--many for over a decade--either to view my art, or for friendship, or simply because they've been too lazy to hit the unwatch button I thank you for putting up with my nonsense. And know that I'm likely to visit these waters more often. My creativity will go into overdrive at this point. I thank my muse for being who she is, and I publicly thank God for bringing her to me when I needed her most.

But don't expect this page to be any less honest. If I'm angry at something in the world, I will likely express that here, as I now express my great joy. Art is about expression, and it's easy to express those views when the majority agrees with you. But it is so much more worthwhile to be in the minority, to be the check that balances. But today, I simply get to be happy. It's been a long time coming.

Watch this space.